my average saturday

Hey, so it's me again. So my ex-boyfriend and I talked today. It was interesting. He was telling me what was going on and what was about to happen in his life. It was a little awkward but hey, that's to be expected. Anyway, I was really upset last night and really depressed today. My friend Daniel and his family went to Busch Gardens and they invited my family to go too. Well, mom and dad said no. Then last night I found out that two of my other friends were going too with his family because they were having a sleepover which I couldn't go to because I was working. I was really upset about it. Anyway, work today was horrible. It was the second worse day I had there. I hate saturdays when I'm working headset! I had all kinds of people come through. I mean the line was wrapped all the way around the building. That's not even exaggerating! Then you had people who didn't know what they wanted when they came to the speekers and then you had the people that were on the phone and trying to talk to you at the same time. Does that really work? It didn't today. It just made the line longer and made more people impatient for their food. I hate it when that happens! Anyway, calming down. After I got off work I thought I wouldn't have anyone to talk to because my friend Daniel, the one who went to Busch Gardens, wouldn't have his cell phone with him. You see, I text him like 24/7. Most of my friends and other people at church think he's the reason I broke up with my boyfriend but he's not. It doesn't matter to me what they think. I really could care less. The good thing is that he did have his cell phone and he has been talking to me. Maybe not as much as he would have if he wasn't at a theme park but still enough. Then my brother has been talking to me too but he's going to a b'day party tonight with his girlfriend if he gets his stuff cleaned up but whatever. My brother is like totally in love with his girlfriend! I mean he is constantly talking about her. It's so funny and so cute. It reminds me of two other friends of mine. Most of the people I know hate it when you're so in love with someone that you can't think or talk about anything else but I love it. I think it gives other people hope but that's probably me being a romantic again. O, we got guitar praise finally! It's like guitar hero but only Christian. It's pretty neat. I only got to play one song so far because I've been so busy but it was pretty cool. Ok well, now I'm hungry so I'm going to go and text my mom and dad and see what we're eating tonight. I think that's all I needed to write anyway.

physics

Well, I started my school year. Great huh? Anyway this year I'm taking physics. Ugh! I mean I like it ok and the teacher's great but I don't really know any of the people in my class. Probably because they're my age. See I don't really make friends with people my age that easy. I can make friends with people younger then me or older then me or even way older then me but not my age. I don't really know why but it's just the way it is. Anyway I missed my first class of physics. I had a dentist appointment. I was all torn up about that. Not really. I liked the excuse but I still had to do the homework. It wasn't that bad. I didn't get some of it but I got to sort it all out with the teacher before class. I still don't get it though. I was watching the other people in my class last time and they seem to understand it. I was so stressed I almost cried but I didn't. After all, what good would that do? So I don't know what to do. Anyway I have to take a test and it's due tomorrow. Funny huh? My mom has to give it to me and she doesn't even know it yet. That to me is even more funny. Then I have even more homework for that class that's due tomorrow too. So on top of all that I have other school work to accomplish and I also have to practice violin. Then on top of all that I have to work. Ok, I might not have to work. My parents seem to want me to quit my job but it gives me an out I guess. It also helps me with learning a lot more then they know. But I'm not going to get into that. That's pretty much all I wanted to share for right now.

Today

So today was like an ordinary day for me. I woke up and did school and then went to work. Work was surprisingly smooth. I got to work register. I was so happy because lately I've been working on headset a lot and it's fine but after a while it gets boring. Anyway while I was at work I was talking to my really good friend here that's helping me get through my breakup. Anyway one of my co-workers come by and ask me who I'm talking to and I tell her and she's like O my gosh! I was like no, it's not like that. Then my one of my other friends (my ex-boyfriend's sister) e-mails me and asks me what happens and was it the other guy. I really don't know why everyone assumes I like him. I only like him as a friend right now. That is it! And even though I might like him a little bit I'm not going to do anything about it. I'm going to stay single until I turn 18 and he's helping me do that. I don't know. Sometimes I get so tired of people looking at me and thinking the only reason I had to break up with my boyfriend was because I liked someone else. I just don't get it. Anyway, I have to go practice my violin and get ready for school tomorrow. First day back at my homeschool group.

Single

Hey, it didn't take me quite as long as last time to write on here. I guess I just need to let some things out but that'll come later. I'm going through a lot of stuff right now and I'm just so confused about a lot of it. I just don't know what to do. I did clear up one issue. I am now single again. I broke up with my boyfriend tonight. I'm not happy about having to do it but I didn't feel like I really could do anything else. I'm not ready for a relationship. To me it feels like God's saying that you're too young to be dating. So, I made a decision! I have decided that I am going to stay single until I turn 18. I've already asked my sister and my best friend Daniel to help. They were like what? It was sort of humerous. I don't know. I feel horrible about breaking up with him because he really was a great guy. Maybe that's why I knew I had to do it. I didn't want to hurt him more then I did. I mean the longer I wait the worse it would get right. I mean if I didn't tell him and he kept liking me or he liked me more then wouldn't it be harder? Or is it just an excuse? I really believe that I'm not suppose to be with him right now. I mean that's not to say that later down the road I wouldn't go out with him. Only if I feel God wants me to. Some people may say that sounds like me just trying to hide behind God but I don't think so. Even people who don't believe in God could feel if they didn't think they were in love. Couldn't they? I think so. Maybe they wouldn't want to believe in love either. I don't know. I have a friend who doesn't believe in God. I wonder if he believes in love. Hmm. I might have to ask him but I'm getting sidetracked. I just needed to think through some of this and typing it down always seems to help me. I don't know though. I think it's just going to take some time to get through this. Who knows? I think I'll get through this. I have some awesome friends. One in particular that knows firsthand about this. He's been really sweet in helping me sort it all out. I couldn't thank him enough.

romantics

Have you ever met someone who still believes in happily ever after? That still believes Prince Charming actually exists even though they're not a child anymore? Well, I'm actually one of them. I believe there is a Happily Ever After and that Prince Charming is out there. But I'm also a realist. I know that even if there is a Happily Ever After that doesn't mean there isn't going to be any more hard times. Actually I know there will be. But to me Happily Ever After is when you meet someone and you know without a doubt that that's who you're suppose to be with for the rest of your life and they feel the same, to me that's Happily Ever After. Same with Prince Charming. I know that he's not going to be perfect. But my idea of Prince Charming isn't this guy who has all the right words, wears all the right clothes, and does all the right things. To me it's a guy who even if we fight about something he takes me up and swings me around and then kisses me. It may sound far fetched and not at all possible but to me I think it can be. I may not be the smartest person in the world but to me if we can think up this stuff then there has to be something of that kind out in the world. That's my opinion though. Although since this is my blog I guess that makes sense. I don't know what you believe but if you have any thoughts or ideas just let me know.

me right now

Hey, I know it's been a really long time since I've written on here. I've been extremely busy and a lot has been happening in my life right now. Interesting isn't it? how one day your life can be so dull and boring that you just want something to happen and when it does you realize you didn't have it so bad after all. That's how I am right now. My life was in a normal routine and then I wanted something new to happen and it did. I'm now having to catch up on my school, confused about a lot of stuff in my life right now, have a lot of unanswered questions about the future, and trying to enjoy life even though all that's going on. It's a lot but I know it'll eventually go away. It always does. I'm going into my senior year!!!!!!!!! That is something to be happy about! I love thinking soon I'll be able to go to college and do my own thing but it also scares me. I don't really know what's going to happen in the future. I'm just praying that it'll be something really good. O, my dad's back. I don't know if I wrote that on here or what but he is! He's helping me and my mom settle a lot of our differences. We get along a lot more when he's in then when he's out. Nothing major besides all that stuff is really happening in my life. I'm still enjoying my job. Maybe even more then I did when I started. Of course there are days when I'm like I really don't want to go to work now but most of the time when I do go I feel much better. Well, I'm done telling about what's up in my life right now. To me this is a lot but to a lot of people my life is boring. To them I just have one thing to say. I'm sorry.