my average saturday

Hey, so it's me again. So my ex-boyfriend and I talked today. It was interesting. He was telling me what was going on and what was about to happen in his life. It was a little awkward but hey, that's to be expected. Anyway, I was really upset last night and really depressed today. My friend Daniel and his family went to Busch Gardens and they invited my family to go too. Well, mom and dad said no. Then last night I found out that two of my other friends were going too with his family because they were having a sleepover which I couldn't go to because I was working. I was really upset about it. Anyway, work today was horrible. It was the second worse day I had there. I hate saturdays when I'm working headset! I had all kinds of people come through. I mean the line was wrapped all the way around the building. That's not even exaggerating! Then you had people who didn't know what they wanted when they came to the speekers and then you had the people that were on the phone and trying to talk to you at the same time. Does that really work? It didn't today. It just made the line longer and made more people impatient for their food. I hate it when that happens! Anyway, calming down. After I got off work I thought I wouldn't have anyone to talk to because my friend Daniel, the one who went to Busch Gardens, wouldn't have his cell phone with him. You see, I text him like 24/7. Most of my friends and other people at church think he's the reason I broke up with my boyfriend but he's not. It doesn't matter to me what they think. I really could care less. The good thing is that he did have his cell phone and he has been talking to me. Maybe not as much as he would have if he wasn't at a theme park but still enough. Then my brother has been talking to me too but he's going to a b'day party tonight with his girlfriend if he gets his stuff cleaned up but whatever. My brother is like totally in love with his girlfriend! I mean he is constantly talking about her. It's so funny and so cute. It reminds me of two other friends of mine. Most of the people I know hate it when you're so in love with someone that you can't think or talk about anything else but I love it. I think it gives other people hope but that's probably me being a romantic again. O, we got guitar praise finally! It's like guitar hero but only Christian. It's pretty neat. I only got to play one song so far because I've been so busy but it was pretty cool. Ok well, now I'm hungry so I'm going to go and text my mom and dad and see what we're eating tonight. I think that's all I needed to write anyway.

physics

Well, I started my school year. Great huh? Anyway this year I'm taking physics. Ugh! I mean I like it ok and the teacher's great but I don't really know any of the people in my class. Probably because they're my age. See I don't really make friends with people my age that easy. I can make friends with people younger then me or older then me or even way older then me but not my age. I don't really know why but it's just the way it is. Anyway I missed my first class of physics. I had a dentist appointment. I was all torn up about that. Not really. I liked the excuse but I still had to do the homework. It wasn't that bad. I didn't get some of it but I got to sort it all out with the teacher before class. I still don't get it though. I was watching the other people in my class last time and they seem to understand it. I was so stressed I almost cried but I didn't. After all, what good would that do? So I don't know what to do. Anyway I have to take a test and it's due tomorrow. Funny huh? My mom has to give it to me and she doesn't even know it yet. That to me is even more funny. Then I have even more homework for that class that's due tomorrow too. So on top of all that I have other school work to accomplish and I also have to practice violin. Then on top of all that I have to work. Ok, I might not have to work. My parents seem to want me to quit my job but it gives me an out I guess. It also helps me with learning a lot more then they know. But I'm not going to get into that. That's pretty much all I wanted to share for right now.

Today

So today was like an ordinary day for me. I woke up and did school and then went to work. Work was surprisingly smooth. I got to work register. I was so happy because lately I've been working on headset a lot and it's fine but after a while it gets boring. Anyway while I was at work I was talking to my really good friend here that's helping me get through my breakup. Anyway one of my co-workers come by and ask me who I'm talking to and I tell her and she's like O my gosh! I was like no, it's not like that. Then my one of my other friends (my ex-boyfriend's sister) e-mails me and asks me what happens and was it the other guy. I really don't know why everyone assumes I like him. I only like him as a friend right now. That is it! And even though I might like him a little bit I'm not going to do anything about it. I'm going to stay single until I turn 18 and he's helping me do that. I don't know. Sometimes I get so tired of people looking at me and thinking the only reason I had to break up with my boyfriend was because I liked someone else. I just don't get it. Anyway, I have to go practice my violin and get ready for school tomorrow. First day back at my homeschool group.

Single

Hey, it didn't take me quite as long as last time to write on here. I guess I just need to let some things out but that'll come later. I'm going through a lot of stuff right now and I'm just so confused about a lot of it. I just don't know what to do. I did clear up one issue. I am now single again. I broke up with my boyfriend tonight. I'm not happy about having to do it but I didn't feel like I really could do anything else. I'm not ready for a relationship. To me it feels like God's saying that you're too young to be dating. So, I made a decision! I have decided that I am going to stay single until I turn 18. I've already asked my sister and my best friend Daniel to help. They were like what? It was sort of humerous. I don't know. I feel horrible about breaking up with him because he really was a great guy. Maybe that's why I knew I had to do it. I didn't want to hurt him more then I did. I mean the longer I wait the worse it would get right. I mean if I didn't tell him and he kept liking me or he liked me more then wouldn't it be harder? Or is it just an excuse? I really believe that I'm not suppose to be with him right now. I mean that's not to say that later down the road I wouldn't go out with him. Only if I feel God wants me to. Some people may say that sounds like me just trying to hide behind God but I don't think so. Even people who don't believe in God could feel if they didn't think they were in love. Couldn't they? I think so. Maybe they wouldn't want to believe in love either. I don't know. I have a friend who doesn't believe in God. I wonder if he believes in love. Hmm. I might have to ask him but I'm getting sidetracked. I just needed to think through some of this and typing it down always seems to help me. I don't know though. I think it's just going to take some time to get through this. Who knows? I think I'll get through this. I have some awesome friends. One in particular that knows firsthand about this. He's been really sweet in helping me sort it all out. I couldn't thank him enough.

romantics

Have you ever met someone who still believes in happily ever after? That still believes Prince Charming actually exists even though they're not a child anymore? Well, I'm actually one of them. I believe there is a Happily Ever After and that Prince Charming is out there. But I'm also a realist. I know that even if there is a Happily Ever After that doesn't mean there isn't going to be any more hard times. Actually I know there will be. But to me Happily Ever After is when you meet someone and you know without a doubt that that's who you're suppose to be with for the rest of your life and they feel the same, to me that's Happily Ever After. Same with Prince Charming. I know that he's not going to be perfect. But my idea of Prince Charming isn't this guy who has all the right words, wears all the right clothes, and does all the right things. To me it's a guy who even if we fight about something he takes me up and swings me around and then kisses me. It may sound far fetched and not at all possible but to me I think it can be. I may not be the smartest person in the world but to me if we can think up this stuff then there has to be something of that kind out in the world. That's my opinion though. Although since this is my blog I guess that makes sense. I don't know what you believe but if you have any thoughts or ideas just let me know.

me right now

Hey, I know it's been a really long time since I've written on here. I've been extremely busy and a lot has been happening in my life right now. Interesting isn't it? how one day your life can be so dull and boring that you just want something to happen and when it does you realize you didn't have it so bad after all. That's how I am right now. My life was in a normal routine and then I wanted something new to happen and it did. I'm now having to catch up on my school, confused about a lot of stuff in my life right now, have a lot of unanswered questions about the future, and trying to enjoy life even though all that's going on. It's a lot but I know it'll eventually go away. It always does. I'm going into my senior year!!!!!!!!! That is something to be happy about! I love thinking soon I'll be able to go to college and do my own thing but it also scares me. I don't really know what's going to happen in the future. I'm just praying that it'll be something really good. O, my dad's back. I don't know if I wrote that on here or what but he is! He's helping me and my mom settle a lot of our differences. We get along a lot more when he's in then when he's out. Nothing major besides all that stuff is really happening in my life. I'm still enjoying my job. Maybe even more then I did when I started. Of course there are days when I'm like I really don't want to go to work now but most of the time when I do go I feel much better. Well, I'm done telling about what's up in my life right now. To me this is a lot but to a lot of people my life is boring. To them I just have one thing to say. I'm sorry.

my days

Hey, it's me again. I havn't talked on here in a while. I have a lot to say but I'll try to save that for another time too. But for starter my mom and I are doing better. My dad's back. That helps a lot because he's like a mediator for my mom and me. I'm hoping that I get to go with my co-workers this Sunday to water country. I've never been but I don't know if my parents will let me go. They don't like me going with people they don't know but I'm hoping I get to even if the odds are against me. But enough of that. About two weeks ago I took off to Pensacola and went on a mission trip with my old youth group. It was amazing! I love the kids up in Kentucky, that's where we went. They are so sweet and full of energy! Anyway, we also went to a nursing home and visited with them twice, that was fun too. Everything about my trip was fun except the van ride back to Pensacola. A lot of people were crying and upset when we were done. But after Sunday service the next day I got a bunch of people together to eat at my favorite mexican resaurant. That was my favorite part of the whole trip besides swing dancing. Now swing dancing was really, really, really fun. The first night and only night i went I got dipped, learned some awesome moves, and I got flipped! I was so excited. If you know my friends you could ask any of them if I was or not. The only other part I didn't like of my trip was the plane rides. The one down there had a five hour delay but I can understand why. I just don't like flying. I get nervous. Anyway, I think this is long enough. I'll try to write on here later.

My Crazy Life

So, tomorrow there's this concert and I really want to go to it but I can't and it sucks!!!!! It's going to have all kinds of good bands there but I've already told you about this so I'm done discussing it. I just wanted to complain one more time. But as I said I do have a crazy life. I'm still doing school because.... well, I don't know why really but whatever. On top of that I still have my job so I'm going to be working and I had to go through all that other stuff just to keep that!!! I'm just happy she let me keep it!!!!! Along with that she just told us last night that we can't go to church Wednesday night because it's not at the church, it's at my Sunday School teacher's house and it's going to be co-ed. Whatever!!!!! I'm not the happiest camper right now. Ask my boyfriend, and if he doesn't know talk to me and you'll find out. So, she lets me keep my job but doesn't trust me enough to go over to my teacher's house even though i have before. I just needed to write that down. It helps me vent. I'll let you know what happens though.

Questions

Ok, I have a few questions. I got a guy in at work the other day and he was dissing the president. I mean, a lot of people do that but normally I ask them if they've ever been president or in politics and when they say no I say then how do you know he's not doing a good job. Why do people do that? I mean, most of the presidents we like are president when our country's going through a good spell, but it has nothing to do with them at all. Then you have the point that even if the president IS trying to do something he has to get the rest of the government to agree with him too. If he didn't then he would have a lot more enemies in government that are far worse then the actual citizens of this country. Mostly becuase they can take away his power if they really wanted to and most politics arn't the most honest people ever but they ARE very smart. So, why don't people think of this before they say the president isn't doing a good job? Most couldn't last a day in his shoes let alone a whole term, that's a lot of responsibility. Why can't people just think before they speak?

Sleepover and a Concert

Last night I got to hang out with one of my friends from church. It took me 30 minutes to convince my mom to let me go since she said I needed to do school but whatever. Anyway it was awesome! My friend and I got to talk one-on-one and then we went down to watch tv with her family who are really nice. While watching tv her dad was showing us some pictures of him working in the military, they were really cool. After a while her parents went upstairs and we watched the movie Dance With Me!!!!! I love that movie!!!!!!!!!! Anyway she fell asleep which I thought was really funny because no matter how hard I try I never can fall asleep while watching a movie. Anyway I had to leave early this morning because I had to go to work but I love my job so I really didn't mind.
Now, let me tell you about this concert. I don't think it's going to be as long as the other paragraph but..... Anyway, it's going to have demon hunter and As I Lay Dying and other really awesome bands and I really, really, really want to go but mom wont let me because she doesn't agree with that kind of music. I was almost over it but then today some guy at my work was wearing a Demon Hunter shirt and I started talking to him about it and then he asked if i was going to this concert and I was like no. So, I'm not really happy. O well, life will go on and I'll be 18 soon too so hopefully I can make it.

steviekins

Now Steviekins, why did you post that picture on your blog? You know I wasn't going to post anything else today but you just had to do that and post the other things about me. I love you but sometimes you do have too big of a mouth. I never said you didn't know me, I just said you didn't know me as well as Steph and Elise!!!!! And trust me, you don't because I've known you less. I love you though and you know you know stuff others don't know but you just don't know everything about me. So, don't go blabbing because I can tell everyone who you like. Although everyone we know knows. Love ya though.

Me

I don't know how to begin. I work at chick-fil-a and I love it. You might hear more about the people there on here because they are so amazing!!!!!! Most come home from work and are in a bad mood because something happened at work and they just don't feel good anymore. Even if something like that happens I don't. The people at work will start talking to me not even realizing that something had just happened and then I start laughing, which by the way isn't that hard to make me do. Some are funnier then others but all of them are extremely nice. Normally when I get off from work I come home to do school or go to church. I love my friends at church!!!! They can tell when I don't feel good or when something's wrong and ask about it. They are extremely funny too. Not to say they don't have their problems but even if they do they'll put them aside for you and worry about yours for a minute. I'm also a military brat. Once i make good friends in one place I have to move to another. I just moved from Florida and I had some really good friends there. I still keep in contact with them but it's not the same as actually being there. I made two friends there that were extremely close. Out of everyone there I miss them the most. Not to say I don't miss you Steviekins but they knew almost everything about me. Since I'm trying to make this brief and it's already really long I'll just tell you one more thing. I saved the best for last and that's my boyfriend. Out of everyone here he can make me feel better just by looking at me and like me he can be pretty random at times. He's amazing and sweet although we debate that a lot. This is my first boyfriend so my mom doesn't know what to think. Both of my parents are flipping out but hey, they knew this day would come. So anyway, that's about it. Well, that's only the surface anyway but it's enough for now.